Adventurer #15 31 июля 2004

Editorial - elph: offering myself ...

elfh / cyberpunks unity

offering myself ...
by elfh

turned into adults children could be
dreadful with their silence and thorough penetrating severity of
stare. while a lot of adults, who still
remain children in their heart of hearts, often suffer from the 
attempts to understand the structure of the world, surrounding 
them, exploring not toy soldiers and cars,

but the laws of existence, falling into pieces, with every step 
they do. my toys are not silent anymore,

they are not lying in disorder around me. they move, cry, 
scream, feel, find harmony in all - devouring

chaos, sleep in cocoon, like a
larvae, when the void advances, and
move together, according to the invisible logic, realizing 
their destiny. i don't want to play them anymore, losses could 
be too much, because every broken off particle takes away a 
part of me. 

adventurer is not less alive than
you or me. even if he lives only in our
consciousness, not having it's own
physical body, i believe, this side of
our existence is what stays after
us, growing and giving birth to a
new life. the body itself is not meaning very much. well, i 
would like to give him mine, at least for some

time, to let him feel your attitude,
to get more food for further
growth. but that means, that together with me, with everyone of
us, devoting ourselves to him, he
will experience all development periods, that are awaiting 
searching human being on the way to eternity.


you can offer something to him,
show him your world. maybe, that
will influence his further fate, but
maybe he will simply pass by. in any
case, i'am sure - he likes to give
himself out, unconsciously, not forcing anyone to anything, but 
at the same time rejoicing, when there is

someone near, who understands
him, and shares his feelings.

we will help him for a long time more.
i don't know what is the age of one,
who is not counting time, but i'm already starting to feel, 
that adventurer was ever.