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The wait, I must admit, had been going on for a long time. mine The last cigarette flew down like a red light. I released several smoky rings, moved closer to the edge and began test your patience. Multi-colored city lights flashed in front of me. neon advertising, headlights of lonely cars, light from rare windows... the sky was amazing cloudless and starry. The even crescent of the moon cast yellow light, illuminating the narrow parapet on which I sat with my legs dangling. Everything around me seemed so small and insignificant. Since then since I came here, enough time had passed and deep the darkness will soon begin its daily struggle with the rays of light oneast. thirteenth floor, top of this corner of the world, ecstasy life, one step to death... somewhere outside the city, in the depths of the night hidden mountains covered with forests and a lake whose mirror should be visible from here. small working town, long a ribbon of reinforced concrete, glass, plastic and people crashed into green bosom of nature... Clean mountain air, crystal rivers, green foliage and the sting of exhaust gases, pipes oozing slop cities, gray, faceless boxes... u stand above it all a person who considers it his duty to cut further and deeper with a scalpel of the achievements of civilization, the true values of this world, cutting off everything that was connected with it... Dawn was approaching. fog appeared, descending from the mountains. the first uncertain light began to dawn. Soon the fog hid its the whole city was gray, its former colors faded with iridescent blurs the brightness of the city at night... and then I realized that I was not sitting alone. Left the outlines of a man sitting, like me, with his legs hanging down. It was not possible to really see him, just a blurry dark silhouette and outline of wings folded behind my back... as soon as I I saw him, all my doubts and fears instantlydisappeared. I knew that this is exactly how everything should have happened - right here and now. Something new and terribly familiar with his appearance became absorb into me. I kept quiet, waiting for him to be the first phrases, and savoring a new, unprecedentedly familiar and strong state.... It was as if I met a painfully familiar face in the crowd and this man, in a suit and tie, with a briefcase in his right hand too looks at me. He recognized me, but I didn’t recognize him. Stylish glasses, fashionable hairstyle, expensive watch hiding behind the sleeve of a jacket - definitely, I know him well, but I don’t really remember anything I can. He looks straight into my eyes with a searching gaze, that's it. understanding, and smiles slyly. u here he stretches his strong hand for a handshake, the cufflinks sparkle and I remember... - hello. minute of silence. - I’ll see, you wanted to meet again. is yours exhausted? request?- It’s still hard for me to talk to you. can't you put the last piece of the puzzle in its place, returning memory... Suddenly a cigarette appeared, clutched at the corner of his lips. I lit a cigarette, throwing the last match after the empty box. The aroma of finely crushed tobacco leaves that have absorbed heat the sun, the moisture of the dew and the freshness of the breeze penetrated into the lungs. nothing changed. - Tell me how it was this time? - my silence was broken interlocutor. The cigarette crunched, flashing red for a second light and everything fell into place. I am me. - as usual. Children's dreams, fantasies. Mother's sweetness hugs, kindness and care that I was surrounded by. there wasn't questions. I lived. then the world suddenly squeezed me with its forged vice, destroying dreams, clampingthroat and spitting at me. Sweetness turned into quiet sobs, fantasies shattered sharp fragments of the realities of life, kindness smiled with a wolfish grin hatred and anger. Love has become a momentary passion. appeared questions. then madness, which threatened to resign itself to order life... cherished answers, the desire for life and complete indifference to everything... My eyes opened, and they were full of sea salt... life has become like tea without tea leaves, like dreams without dreams, like a song without words. warmth of feelings was replaced by a coldness of reason to which everything was revealed. ALL... and here it is I'm here. The light flew down. we sat and greeted the dawn with silence. The East turned pink. - Where, I wonder, is my soul? - you see her quite often - I thought you would guess.I smiled at my guess. the sky is almost clear of stars, even the moon was hidden behind a lonely cloud, but the only one a star like a tear sparkled over the last diamond head. it was to her that I turned my hopes, I looked for her in moments despair, I always recognized it... the star to which I was chained by sleepless days... the one I called my own name. It couldn’t be otherwise. -Have you decided this time? I was in no hurry to answer. silently I experienced everything again inside, weighing your principles of life and the values of this world. u realized that this time I definitely know the right answer. - Tell me about me. Now I have the right to know this. the last star sparkled with a sad flash and drowned in the rays of the sun. the fog began to thin, driven away by the cold the breeze. onpeople appeared in the streets, jumping out like ants warm beds, breaking away from the comfort of home, rushing to nowhere. He began to tell, and I, catching every word, remembered, hearing a quiet rustling behind you. - you were one of the Legion. when the Forces moved the Battle to land, you were one of the first to come here. You have your word He turned to people and their hearts were open to him. you ruled shared, confessed and blessed. Your gaze was directed forward, seeing the truth. your hand was strong, inexorable and the swing of your sword over the heads of the infidels was inevitable. you surrounded the creativity of people with a halo of inspiration, breathed kindness, cleansed the dirt of vices and the growth of sins from the face of the earth. prophet and warrior, monk and king, wanderer and martyr... but one day you met her and the temptation of the forbidden fruit took possession of you. Passion inflamed feelings unknown to you before, clouding your clear mind. you tasted what was forbidden to you with her, despite any ties and prohibitions. And when she rejected you, you stained your sword with hers blood... that's how I saw you for the first time. so it burned in the sky a new star, dousing you with cold from the inside. you asked for time - I gave it to you. u began to come, waiting for hope will break beforereality of life... - when will you pick me up? “Today’s sunset will be especially beautiful...” and he took off up, spreading its blue-black wings. The sun has already left the horizon, the light has triumphed over darkness, giving birth to a shadow. but the struggle continued and victory lived only one day until darkness began to grow from long shadows, enveloping a patchwork quilt of a quiet sleepy city...
Shadow - I sat and waited. The wait, I must admit, had been going on for a long time. my last cigarette flew down like a red light.
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