:##%##########: letter :##########%##: letter to nowhere (October 2oo) (c) Riskej^OSA I don’t even know what to say... I always expect something more. That's just what? WHAT do I expect from Spectrum? This question I I ask myself hundreds of times a day. u I can't find answer. I don’t know what to be happy about on the Spectrum, and what to regret. Recently, anyone, no matter how bad he is was, the software makes me happy that it exists. Here in Genza I praise Lamerji all the time, but now I’m sad that he's not there. He has degenerated. maybe not forever, but it's just that no one needs it. how you don't need a gens or cry, neither Adventurer. nothing for anyone anymoreneed to. we can say that people are too lazy to write their opinions about anything. I don't understand this. If the software is for me interesting, then I will definitely write to the author my opinion, wish... In the end, it’s just moral I will encourage him. Eh... Think about it! we made Genz #pt for six months. work, as you yourself know, it is very difficult, and in the end we letters arrived. Four! Ugh. that's why I Now I do everything just for myself. I don't care anymore what people think about it. I made only one number for people - the fourth and I won't repeat this mistake again. This is how I am I have become selfish, but this is already the past, the present for me and the future... Here is your project. someone writes to you of various kinds criticism, but in his heart he understands that what you do it - it’s hard and few people now _try_ do something. by criticizing you he only confirms what you need to live.don't listen to anyone. no one. Watch and listen only yourself. Spec society is degrading. and is degrading rapidly and in many respects. It's scary to even talk about it. Yesterday we talked for a long time with the pulsar about sense of further creativity. He _hopes_. hopes for the best. And for me the word is "hope" died. Died for various reasons. hope is destiny stupid and weak. I have faith backed up facts. If there are no facts, then there is no faith. my creativity on Speck at the moment is a thin thread of reasons. u the main one of these reasons is interest. She connected me with Spectrum. a thin thread that does not break. I'm happy that you I have friends on the Spectrum, and I love them - I love them sincerely. Without them, I wouldn't know what would have happened. I love Spectrum, I love it because here I can realize myself, I am incredibly happy from every minutes spent in Pro tracker writing new composition. This is the meaning of my creativity. And now something motivates me to write these lines, and not relax at the dacha or fishing. Something prompts me to at least somehow support you... I'm lying to myself - where am I supporting you? Words? Probably, moral support is important, although I am no longer than I'm not sure. I’m writing again... I often think about the “correct” speech in genza, but it seems to me that people will be more pleased to read something what they understand, that's why I don't switch to frank literary style, although I can. You guys are great. Well done for many reasons. And I kind of fell into depression. u think to me that the 5th Genz will not be review-analytical like usually, but in an overview and philosophical way. that's the way I have it mood for all creativity. Yes, and I became different, completely different from himself even upon completion working on the fourth issue of Genza. What else can I say?.. There’s too much philosophy in my article... Friend, good luck to you, be optimistic and more free time! u remember, friend, Spectrum is something more than just a car, so look for yourself - look for something that would make everyone shudder pleasantly. riskej. night. inspired by 'radiohead'. :##%##########: letter :##########%##: Re: letter (c) Pulsar^OSA (1b.oe.och) Today I took this letter from Risk (written, as he said, quite a long time ago(as far as I know known six months ago), but still the same exciting and relevant for him). read the letter. I was overcome with sadness again. After all Indeed, everything that Riskej wrote about above accomplished fact. u what as he says There is nothing to hope for, that’s also a fact. u me telling him about I may have betrayed my hope. I'd rather it was necessary to talk not about hope for some possible bright future, but that despite, it would seem that all the deplorability of our situation, everything to me I still want to do a lot. There is a desire to turn back and look on how it was. Riskej and I know about Speck, perhaps a very long time ago. If we take it on average, then how at least a year since 9e (I'm from 91), but a new sip information and desire to do something only appeared in the spring of 99 after meeting J^CIC. For the sake of In fairness, it should be noted that before the above dating neither I nor Risk did anything on Spec (My computer was completely broken since 95). For us it was a huge defeat and an impetus for action everything seen. I almost fell when I saw it Refresh :), although this is not so surprising, because beforeof this, everything seen was dated back to a maximum of 9 hours a year. :( so, everything started to turn around. but, naturally, “Moscow was not built right away,” and we spend quite a lot of time (six months to a year) just tried to catch up, studying with enthusiasm flowing like a stream from the screen is new and from that information that is interesting to us. then slowly with by accumulating knowledge and skills started something invent (I, and perhaps even Risk, remember with what music was difficult for him; for a very long time he could not exceed the limit of 1o positions... Of course, I have similar, but in code). somewhere in the middle of 2oooo to us Morfy joined. At the end of 2000 J^CIC bought itself PC, which at the same time cut our wings, but at the same time and released. then there was 2oo1 - one of the brightest and most eventful. started he is from the first more/less worthwhile project - Gift & fuck that J^CIC. This same year, some of us visited the first ASCII, which gave us new friends, new ideas and our first projects. upon arrival with ASCII oe.och.o1 (on my birthday) was the current group was formed by one of the initiator and inspirer of which was then still new person- luka^OSA. From now until December 2oo2 attempts were made to work together, the result of which was the 1st 5th issue of Genz, our the first and so far unfortunately the only deme, several gifts, a lot of music, texts, graphics, a huge number of never implemented Today is the day of ideas. but most importantly, what is this time we learned to work and this is perhaps the most the main thing. although I would also note the birth of the action ReSpect, which to this day is considered by me very true, timely and interesting. Me and Today I am closely and primarily occupied with it. 2000 has come, it only brought disappointments, and, unfortunately, I have a breakup many connections. :( the cause of all cataclysms was banal and fucking study. At first Riskej passed exams at the university, then I wrote a bunch of term papers and diploma (I was finishing my technical degree, which gave a lot time and opportunity to study at your own pace pleasure Speck). In between all this we are still voluntarily forced madness released the long-suffering Genz#och, something about little things, we've released information about ReSpect. after that together (me and Riskej, who left his previous universityfor his inconvenience... there were generally reasons) began to enter the university, which is quite They did it safely. We decided to make a demo to CAfe'oe, but didn't have time, and after a long time stagnation was difficult to quickly disperse. Riskej went on CAfe'oe and returned just the way you found him you feel in the above written “letter to nowhere”. u now all this time I (as the organizer of the group and as usually a more interested person) I try, change something and return to work again, so What’s more, we came up with a bunch of projects for ourselves! What do we have now? Now I have everything it slowly settled down, the first session at the university passed (which, again, Riskej still hasn’t done :((( ) “I got my bearings”, ready again work, although unfortunately there is no free time In fact, it has become a year less. but now I'm faced with with another problem, that especially besides me and work then no one. :( luka - currently working in another city, everything is going towards the fact that he will soon get married, and because of all this, the desire to work significantly decreased. I - well, I think from everything stated above the approximate picture is clear, now I’m working on the first queue ReSpect, and little by little I kick everyone, I try bring to logicalthe end of our projects. Sl - in I got lost somewhere lately, more precisely for now nothing can be said. :( Morfy - here's the second one active person, currently coding something, I hope soon you and I will see all this, it also picks up all our iron. Riskej - you can see everything anyway, he promises everything pull yourself together, I think it will happen soon. This is the story, I think it will set All the i's are dotted in a letter to nowhere. Just like that everything... And now several interesting points of the "letter": At the very beginning of his letter, Riskey writes: "...I expect something more..." - I would like to note one must not wait, but act, in my opinion, if one you do nothing, then on what basis and with what By the way, can you expect something from someone? And in general Waiting is not the lot of the weak? >hope is for the stupid and weak. I have faith >supported by facts. If the factsno, >then there is no faith. once again I allow myself not to be with you agree. Moreover, it seems to me that here hidden contradiction, because with small assumptions in my opinion, between the words “hope” and “faith” you can put an equal sign. I was wondering if that's true this, I opened the explanatory dictionary of C.u. Ozhegov and this is what it turned out: Faith is conviction, confidence in someone or something. take on faith - accept as true without evidence. hope - ... confidence in fulfillment anything. And in any case, the concept of faith is not implies a clear sequence facts! >don’t listen to anyone... look and listen only >yourself. It was this Riske that killed you in me. :( yours pride...>spec society is degrading. and is degrading >rapidly and in many respects. even >it's scary to talk. It does not degrade, it just simply dies out and naturally, against the general background, this may seem degradation, because swarming becomes finer and less quality. :( but fortunately Spec the community is not dying out so quickly, and time replenished from time to time, even if a little, even if old people, but still... And extinction is precisely begins with such thoughts as in the “letter” - and this is already article. :))) That's probably all that caused me this "letter". Damn, I criticized everything. :))) Eh, It's been a long time since I wrote on ICQ for so long... Here peed, remembered the past and present and, it seems, even I feel better. Once again it seems that not everything is so bad, as Mr. Riskej is trying to convey.
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